my weekend was bitter sweet, huge fight with my mum, and i didn’t get any chores done or studying done for my finals, Sunday i just left cause i could hear all the crap they were saying about me in the next room, n i crochet at the park, and i met this rlly nice family n i might baby sit them next year, maybe, but i got stung by a bee, n now my foot hurts D; and when i came home to apologize my mum called me a bitch, so i left again, went to my Angels house, where her friend was their and they gave me a tarot card reading, n it made me feel better, but then the diner i ate their, gave me food poisoning so i couldn’t do anything on Monday either, and THEN today i had to do finals while feeling shitty, but the plus side is i now have my schedule thingy planned out better for next year, and i made up with my mum, AND apparently my ex got me a job offer at some ink called Vector, what ever that is and i now have to many job offers DX

So i guess i’m a looser. When mason broke up with me, suddenly all of my friends just hate me and I don’t know why. So I now have no friends. Well, i have tons of friends online, but that doesn’t really count. Can online friends call when you miss school to see if your okay? Not that any of my so called friends ever did. I once walked 5 miles in the middle of the night, to make sure one of my friends was okay, i don’t expect them to do the same, but is it so hard to want someone to at least notice that your still alive? I didn’t think so, but i guess i’m wrong. A nerdy, book reading, yarn knitting, friendless, looser v. v

and i was right, he broke up with me, not a huge shocker, but what he said, was a bit mean. i already knew im a fucking psychopath, do i need him telling me? not so much…

bah at the end of the school year, ima be single ugh

lets see, my day was, interesting, i roll-skated some more, i think im doing okay, still dont know how to stop, or turn, and my balance is shaky at best x3 but im working on it, although my muscles r so sore x. x i cooked today for Lauren and stuff, we had fried eggplant, salad, and corn muffins~ today felt different, like idk, something was different today, not sure wut, but it was, like mason was all touchy feely today, almost clingy, and well i made him cry a few times x. x ugch, and on top of that ive just been so moody, like one moment im happy or alright and the next im going off the handles and yelling and being pissed, not to mention a certain Cat ik messed with my work <. < i wont name names, CAITLIN, but yeah, dont do it again x. x on these types of days, im just plain not fun to fuck with. -sigh- i miss mason~

poor Jayy hurting his hand like that, poor thing~

im such a terrible person, a horrible terrible fucking person, someone should kill me before i strike again v. v

tonight i will go back home to my lovely mother, and evil house guest who continues to use my comp, bitch, i sware if she bitches about “oh while you were gone i didn’t use the computor alot to get work done” bullshit again ill fucking never let her on it again, is it me or is “when im not there” or “when im asleep” not enough fucking time? is it my fault, or is that bitch just fucking lazy and not using the opportunities that i give her?? god she pisses me off, especially when i do “something moraly wrong” like get a rise out of her short temper, bitch right and wrong are COMPLETELY by perspective, from my point of veiw, i dont see anything wrong with annoying some person whos invaded my house and my life. and she constantly talks about how i need to change and grow up and be an adult. excuse me, but she doesnt do half of the shit she says, shes a fucking hypocrate, and im so fucking done dealing with her fucking shit.

and now today i bought a pair of rollerskates~ so much fun to be had~ then next fall ill try t for the roller durby in my town for shits and giggles. Next month i might buy FATE from wildtangent~ man im spending to much money~ well….im not 18 yet so i dont have to worry about money troubles, at least not very much x3